B-A-C-K, kinda!

Mommy & Me photo
(postpartum graduation)

Soooo, I’m back from a l o n g hiatus. Welllllll, not back back officially, but half-way back. Little by little, piece by piece, day by day, step by step I am feeling closer to home i.e. self.

Since we last spoke, I did a thing x 2. We officially committed to doing life together (me and my love) AND we created a new life together (mind you, my body did ALL the heavy lifting–figuratively and literally). And, now that you have connected those dots, yes, we planned an intimate micro wedding and I grew and safely delivered a healthy nine pound baby boy; our R e i g n b e a u. Proof there is happiness after the storm. 

This time, I felt really inside out when I was expecting. That same feeling when your shirt is on inside out, but on steroids. There was major discomfort, my body signed up for every pregnancy symptom that you could Google, and there was no one around who could truly share in my experience (which was a lonely place to be). I am beyond grateful for a natural pregnancy AND it was a tough one. I am learning that it is acceptable to use “yes, and” language. I never took maternity photos, because I didn’t feel like myself, so far from home. Plus, I don’t believe in following rules and/or customs simply because everyone else did it or is doing it. This mommy and me photo is me clapping loudly f o r the place I am standing in now, f o r the nine months of unbearable growing pains, f o r withstanding natural labor pains at the hands of an voluntary past my due date induction, f o r the months and months of around the clock extreme dedication to breastfeeding, f o r reclaiming my old body and accepting the new, f o r giving up sleep for the last nine months; I am/we are the G.O.A.T.

There are so many branches to my growth in 2021; I am stuffed and overflowing with new experiences to reflect on and share. So, let’s see how this goes! I’m recommitting to this space and welcoming myself back. Back to doing more things that fill me up and make me more whole inside. 

So that’s the short version of how M Y S Y D N E Y J A M E S has expanded; my world now includes a new heartbeat and a forever partner. Before I run off to manage all the things and tiny humans, I’ll gift you (for now) with this clip that continues to resonate with me in this new chapter. 

Talk soon,

Amber (with a new last name)

Boarding Flight #2021

Taking off into the new year with lite baggage; a carry-on of all the good stuff from 2020. Within this bag a metallic silver lining of recovery, discovery, nourishment, readiness, and partnership. All the stitches necessary to catapult me into the next redesign of me. My inner self is flying into this new year feeling lighter, purposeful in every step I take, beaming with steadfast joy at the abundance of blessings I have been given this year, the lioness strength to tackle anything that sits in the way of my personal growth and fulfillment, and the realization that a global pandemic can’t stop the inevitable from forming; the greatest love I have ever known.

Self-Taught Lessons from #2020

I. We all must forge a timeless subscription to choiceful solitude. To both my single and coupled ladies, never stop spending quality time with yourself and never lose the talent of being alone; those vital moments of introspection. It is so easy to get lost in the 𝘄𝗲 that you  so easily forget to focus on 𝘆𝗼𝘂…and your individual path. There is something freeing about considering yourself and what makes you fulfilled. Wholeness. “Me time,” you are essential!

II. Luxurious and effective skincare does not have to cost your liver and the price of a Gucci bag. There are a new class of options, Versed and Cocokind, that will get the job done and bypass shoppers guilt.

III. Just because you are changing doesn’t mean everything and everyone around you is experiencing the same metamorphic and/or in the same way. Cut off the joy-stealers, but be patient with those you love. Specifically, blending a family is a unique process for every individual involved. If the adults don’t work together for the kids, nobody wins. 

IV. Don’t take for granted connection, family, your village. Showing up for others comes in many different facets,  but we all rely on our personal sphere of influence as medicine to the soul. The laughter, in-depth convos, and stress-free interactions keep us grounded and focused on living our truth with those who see us when we may be blind to our own growth.

Remember all the things we’ve done this year when the world froze. We stopped waiting for the weekend, that day off, that vacation, that opportunity, that relationship, and just made the best out of being present. We learned a new way of being. We kept growing (even when we didn’t realize it). We kept loving ourselves and others (even when we didn’t realize it). All done from home plate.

Let’s board this new trip around the sun with last year’s takeaways and the space to create more vim and vigor. #goodbaggage